TTC

No pregnancy this month...

I am now understanding the emotional rollercoaster ride that is trying to conceive.

....at least it waited until after valentines day.....

Happy Valentine's Day

I hope that anybody left out there in blog-land still reading this blog have a lovey mushy sickly sweet day. As for me and M, a quiet day at home, he not feeling well and I am catching up on all the blogs that I have been neglecting. Some are switching over to new blog homes.

Homesick

I am terribly homesick. I thought that it would only last for a few weeks but it continues on like a dull ache. I miss mt kids, my family, my friends, my knowledge of the area that I am in. I thought this would be like all the other times that I have moved in my life (something like 30 times) I thought that I'd be used to it by now, but this one is a doozy.

M and I are happily married, and trying for a baby, but no luck yet. We got married in a tiny ceremony with just M, M's parents and myself. It was almost like we eloped, almost. I wore a simple cream lacy blouse and brown skirt and he wore a nice jacket, shirt, tie, and trousers set. I also had on my mother's tiara/beaded headpiece that was part of he veil when my parents got married 38 years ago. I thought that it might be good luck. The ceremony was simple and laid back, and afterwards we just went out to eat at our favorite chinese restaurant. We had some cake and nibblies at m's parents' place and went home and started in earnest to make a baby :)

Since then, I have mainly stayed at home doing a whole lot of nothing. That is what makes my homesickness so bad. I used to drive all around and knew where I was going and had most of the roads that ran north and south, east and west. Here it is like someone threw spaghetti at a piece of paper and called it a city map. We don't have a car, so we rely on busses and trains. I hate that I am completely clueless on where I am going and if it weren't for M I'd never ever get out of the apartment. So this is where I am at for the next 2 years or so. From there we decide whether or not we stay here or we go to the States. We'll see, i guess.

I am ok

just a quick blurb to say that I am still around and ok. I got married and things are going well. more to blog later when I can