Homesick

I am terribly homesick. I thought that it would only last for a few weeks but it continues on like a dull ache. I miss mt kids, my family, my friends, my knowledge of the area that I am in. I thought this would be like all the other times that I have moved in my life (something like 30 times) I thought that I'd be used to it by now, but this one is a doozy.

M and I are happily married, and trying for a baby, but no luck yet. We got married in a tiny ceremony with just M, M's parents and myself. It was almost like we eloped, almost. I wore a simple cream lacy blouse and brown skirt and he wore a nice jacket, shirt, tie, and trousers set. I also had on my mother's tiara/beaded headpiece that was part of he veil when my parents got married 38 years ago. I thought that it might be good luck. The ceremony was simple and laid back, and afterwards we just went out to eat at our favorite chinese restaurant. We had some cake and nibblies at m's parents' place and went home and started in earnest to make a baby :)

Since then, I have mainly stayed at home doing a whole lot of nothing. That is what makes my homesickness so bad. I used to drive all around and knew where I was going and had most of the roads that ran north and south, east and west. Here it is like someone threw spaghetti at a piece of paper and called it a city map. We don't have a car, so we rely on busses and trains. I hate that I am completely clueless on where I am going and if it weren't for M I'd never ever get out of the apartment. So this is where I am at for the next 2 years or so. From there we decide whether or not we stay here or we go to the States. We'll see, i guess.

I am ok

just a quick blurb to say that I am still around and ok. I got married and things are going well. more to blog later when I can

I made it safely

I am here and safe and much much happier than when I left! When M and I were reunited at the airport, I just grabbed him snd kissed him hard, even infront of his parents. \I just didn't care, I was just focused on him. He told me later that there were some "Awwws" from the surrounding crowd.

It seems that I made it out of the US Midwest just in time as there was a dumping of snow at Chicago O'Hare less than 24 hours after I flew out. that was timing!

So far It hasn't hit me that I am home, I have to unpack yet and girlie-ize this bachellor's pad and then I will feel at home, LOL!

Oh and I thought that it was going to look dry and brown here like it does in the midwest---Nope! it is LUSH and Green here and it is December! I love it!

Off to go be a bride

today I leave for the UK to be with M and to get married exactly a month from today. My flight leaves at 1:50 central and I land tomorrow at 10:00 am GMT (or 4am central). My feelings are ambivelent, which suck because I want to be joyous, but I am leaving my friends and family behind, and that is tearful and hard.

I'll post when I can,
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Well--off to be a bride's maid

In the morning I go off to be a bride's maid--again... that makes 3xs in my life before I am joined with my soulmate. My friend, K, is marrying my good guy friend, J, on Tuesday at 3 pm. I am excited to be there and see them get married to the "right" people as I was there at both of their former marriages.

Ahh, Love is in the air!

Soon, 'twill be time for M and I to be joined lawfully then in March joined spiritually.

"Lift Me Up"

by Geri Halliwell (Former Ginger Spice of the Spice Girls)

Watch the first light kiss the New World
It's a wonder, baby like you and I
All the colours of the rainbow
Going somewhere, baby like you and I
It's going to be alright
But when my clouds sky over

(Lift Me Up) When the day is over
(Take me up) When the sun is going down
(Show me love) I will be your angel now
(Lift Me Up) When the lights are fading
(Talk me down) When I'm flying way up high
(Show me love) And I'll be your angel for life
Your angel for life

Like the seasons ever changing
Everlasting baby, like you and I
It's going to be alright
But when my sky clouds over

(Lift Me Up) When the day is over
(Take me up) When the sun is going down
(Show me love) I will be your angel now
(Lift Me Up) When the lights are fading
(Talk me down) When I'm flying way up high
(Show me love) And I'll be your angel for life
Your angel for life

No matter where we run
Who knows what we will become
Is there a world we know
Where life will naturally

(Lift Me Up) When the day is over
(Take me up) When the sun is going down
(Show me love) I will be your angel now
(Lift Me Up) When the lights are fading
(Talk me down) When I'm flying way up high
(Show me love) And I'll be your angel for life
Your angel for life
[Repeat]

better now

I had a chat with M about everything and he helped to show me that this is the right choice for all of us. We even started looking into schools for my daughter and we need to look further for my son if he choses to stay.

It all makes logical sense, but my heart still hurts.

Real cry

Remember that I was having a hard time crying over temporarily leaving my kids back in the States. I am bawling my eyes out. It is getting closer and I don't know how I am going to do it. I am going to go curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out.

Bra situation solved

I went shopping with my mother the other day and while we were finding an outfit to wear to the registry office wedding, I was also measured for a bra. I was off by 2 inches and those inches make a HUGE difference!

Who knows, I may come to like bras...

$#*!@ Bras!!!

Confound the Damn things!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!

I just bought a *real* bra for the first time in years. I normally wear soft comfy boob shelf making sports bras. The cup ones never fit right, so the plainer the better comfort for me. However, the sports bras don't show off my best attributes and give me that boob-shelf uni-boob look.

So I measured, and was all prepared, bought a real lift and support bra for 18hours worth of wearing. Functional with alittle lace to be sexy. The damn thing is the right size around and the cups are the right size but the thing still pokes and hurts anyway. Back to the sports bras, I guess.

You other Ladies have similar issues? How do you go about finding one that fits? how many of you have 23859628346592834 bras that are pushed to the back of your underwear drawer that just have one minor flaw that makes them uncomfortable?