I made it safely

I am here and safe and much much happier than when I left! When M and I were reunited at the airport, I just grabbed him snd kissed him hard, even infront of his parents. \I just didn't care, I was just focused on him. He told me later that there were some "Awwws" from the surrounding crowd.

It seems that I made it out of the US Midwest just in time as there was a dumping of snow at Chicago O'Hare less than 24 hours after I flew out. that was timing!

So far It hasn't hit me that I am home, I have to unpack yet and girlie-ize this bachellor's pad and then I will feel at home, LOL!

Oh and I thought that it was going to look dry and brown here like it does in the midwest---Nope! it is LUSH and Green here and it is December! I love it!

Off to go be a bride

today I leave for the UK to be with M and to get married exactly a month from today. My flight leaves at 1:50 central and I land tomorrow at 10:00 am GMT (or 4am central). My feelings are ambivelent, which suck because I want to be joyous, but I am leaving my friends and family behind, and that is tearful and hard.

I'll post when I can,
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Well--off to be a bride's maid

In the morning I go off to be a bride's maid--again... that makes 3xs in my life before I am joined with my soulmate. My friend, K, is marrying my good guy friend, J, on Tuesday at 3 pm. I am excited to be there and see them get married to the "right" people as I was there at both of their former marriages.

Ahh, Love is in the air!

Soon, 'twill be time for M and I to be joined lawfully then in March joined spiritually.

"Lift Me Up"

by Geri Halliwell (Former Ginger Spice of the Spice Girls)

Watch the first light kiss the New World
It's a wonder, baby like you and I
All the colours of the rainbow
Going somewhere, baby like you and I
It's going to be alright
But when my clouds sky over

(Lift Me Up) When the day is over
(Take me up) When the sun is going down
(Show me love) I will be your angel now
(Lift Me Up) When the lights are fading
(Talk me down) When I'm flying way up high
(Show me love) And I'll be your angel for life
Your angel for life

Like the seasons ever changing
Everlasting baby, like you and I
It's going to be alright
But when my sky clouds over

(Lift Me Up) When the day is over
(Take me up) When the sun is going down
(Show me love) I will be your angel now
(Lift Me Up) When the lights are fading
(Talk me down) When I'm flying way up high
(Show me love) And I'll be your angel for life
Your angel for life

No matter where we run
Who knows what we will become
Is there a world we know
Where life will naturally

(Lift Me Up) When the day is over
(Take me up) When the sun is going down
(Show me love) I will be your angel now
(Lift Me Up) When the lights are fading
(Talk me down) When I'm flying way up high
(Show me love) And I'll be your angel for life
Your angel for life
[Repeat]

better now

I had a chat with M about everything and he helped to show me that this is the right choice for all of us. We even started looking into schools for my daughter and we need to look further for my son if he choses to stay.

It all makes logical sense, but my heart still hurts.

Real cry

Remember that I was having a hard time crying over temporarily leaving my kids back in the States. I am bawling my eyes out. It is getting closer and I don't know how I am going to do it. I am going to go curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out.

Bra situation solved

I went shopping with my mother the other day and while we were finding an outfit to wear to the registry office wedding, I was also measured for a bra. I was off by 2 inches and those inches make a HUGE difference!

Who knows, I may come to like bras...

$#*!@ Bras!!!

Confound the Damn things!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!

I just bought a *real* bra for the first time in years. I normally wear soft comfy boob shelf making sports bras. The cup ones never fit right, so the plainer the better comfort for me. However, the sports bras don't show off my best attributes and give me that boob-shelf uni-boob look.

So I measured, and was all prepared, bought a real lift and support bra for 18hours worth of wearing. Functional with alittle lace to be sexy. The damn thing is the right size around and the cups are the right size but the thing still pokes and hurts anyway. Back to the sports bras, I guess.

You other Ladies have similar issues? How do you go about finding one that fits? how many of you have 23859628346592834 bras that are pushed to the back of your underwear drawer that just have one minor flaw that makes them uncomfortable?

Tickets and tears

The tickets to the UK have been ordered and paid for, so now it is official that I am going over to my M, my love, :)

I am still dealing with the *Blah* emotions of going there though. Temporary as it is, I am still leaving my kids behind for awhile and that just tears me up. More than I really let on to others. Maybe I should just have a bawling fit and just get over it. Kinda like making yourself vomit when you are nauseous, just so you don't have to feel AS nauseous as you were before. I need to vomit tears. I need to find that syrup of ipicac for my emotions, but so far my emotional drug store is closed. Plus I need to time it just right so that my daughter doesn't see it or know about it.

So, for now, I will stoically stifle my bittersweet tears of sorrow and joy and continue being a bothersom mother and hug my daughter at every opportunity. I'll smother my son when I see him next, with hugs and kisses.

~*WOOT*~

WE ARE APPROVED!!!


I got the message tonight and the very nice lady said that I am approved for a fiance' visa for the UK and I will be receiving the paperwork back, via Fed Ex, within the next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was so happy that I called M at 2am his time, and hollered down the phone at him that we did it, we are approved, I am free to fly over anytime now! Poor guy probably will think it a dream and read it here to confirm what I told him, LOL!

This is what we wanted in some form or another since Stonehenge, June 21st 2005. WE DID IT!!!! We can finally get married!!!!

Now---Let's Celebrate!!!!