40 weeks--Full term

I am going to copy and paste what I wrote in my dute date club's check in thread:

"Today is my EDD.

I was certain that I was in slow labor part of Friday, and alllll day Saturday. Contrax were 10 minutes then 8 mins, then 6, then 4, and I was dealing well with them. I was in a good mood. We called the midwife over for a check (no vaginal exams) and she said by feeling on my belly that baby was at a 3 station into my pelvis. She left and we decided to rest and Hubby and I laid down to sleep. I slept all night and so far this morning I have had ONE noticeable contrax. What the &^£%$£*^&$%*$ happened??? I should have babe in arms. I feel so frustrated with my body, and feel like I am "failing". My Goodness! I woke up this morning thinking about packing my bag to go to the hellspital. For F*(k'$ sake--might as well knock me out and section me and while they're at it give baby some formula. I am starting to feel "distanced" from my baby, body, and labor that even baby's once joyfull reassuring kicks have become more of an annoyance.

Hubby is beside himself with distress and worry as he has never been through this and throughout the entire pregnancy he's been looking to me for calm guidance--I have none of that to give. He is great to cry to and on, but his frustration level is about at the breaking point and I think we may end up fighting if we aren't careful.

Sorry to start the day on such a down note--hopefully things will look better later."

Well, one of the midwives came out and came to the conclusion that my water hasn't broken, that I am in no "danger" of needing to go to the hospital. Baby's heartbeat is good, movements are good, everything looks good, just that it was a good round of false labor. So we go back to the waiting game. M is feeling better, but I still feel frustrated. I have had lots of well meaning texts, IMs, and phone calls asking if I have had baby yet. I kind of still feel like a failure.

So we wait.....